10:58pm
It's late and everyone is asleep. The house is so quiet as I tiptoe out of my bedroom, through the kitchen and into the study. I need to be upright, i am in a fair bit of pain. Lately, food has been getting stuck again and I can tell tonight's dinner isn't digesting properly. It such an uncomfortable feeling. At least it's not a full spasm this time. They are almost unbearable. I wonder if this is how it will be for the rest of my life. I try not to worry. It's not really in my control. Lately I don't really feel as though much is...i my control I mean. Someone really needs to write a 'Parenting - How To' book... kind of like the 'What to Expect when you're Expecting' but for each stage of raising children. Right now I need to teen edition. It's all new. Every day its new and I am trying to figure out the best way or the right way or just ismply a way that keeps everything smooth and most people somewhat happy. Sometimes it feels like we ...
